Indulgences: Project runway, triangle trip, eclectic collection of music, saying goodbyes to friends, reminiscing on old memories, lots of in depth thinking, making a million and one lists, socializing instead of studying, putting myself out there, trail-blazing up a mountain to the C at night, not buying textbooksThinking about: advertisements, childhood, consumerism, raising children. (reminders to talk about in later posts), father's critiques,
Love: garancedore, sartorialist, fashion blogs, making lists, having my mind be expanded, friendly people, the delirious-tired stage, becoming super close with people within a span of a week, chivalry, good mannered/considerate people, LATE CLASSES
A bit about me: i love indie-esque things. also LOVE vintage things. in love with hipster, def wish i was a hipster., in love with the light rose and cream color scheme at the moment, i like romance-and not only in the mushy movie type of way, i'm a huge dreamer, i love trying new things(esp when it comes to food)
Europe:
Europe was amazing. I fell in love with the romance of its culture. I realized while in Europe, that i'm really interested in learning different cultures and customs. I'm fascinated at how different people function, what they believe to be comfortable and natural.
Europe was one of those trips of a lifetime. there isn't another time that i'll be able to get together with 40 or so people who most of which i've seen around for 4 years, but never got to know, go to europe for a month, and share an amazing adventure of novelty with, which instantly grows friendships. Even though it was crazy expensive, its a life memory, and worth it.
Orientation:
Skipping this.
Church camp: in a later post.
Foundation/History:
I've come to find how important it is to know your family history and how interesting it could be. One day while driving back to some place, I was asking my mom about our family. There was so much to take in and to digest. I think that family history is something that each child and their parent should talk about, it not only informs the child of their family, but creates a special bond/moment. History is our foundation/building blocks. Not knowing your own family history is basically to not know who you are, what your background is. I would be incredibly ashamed if my future children asked me about my family's history, and didn't have an answer for them.
I'm excited to learn more.(:
The "grey area"/being both:
I think i've talked about this before. About being part of the world, and trying to be a christian at the same time. It doesn't work out. I'm having a hard time letting this concept go of being favored in both aspects. One aspect that's really killing me: music. I know I shouldn't listen to ANY sort of secular music, even if it doesn't seem "bad" such as indie music, which i love. Incredibly difficult. I'm still confused as to the ratio of world:Godliness that a person can/should be.
Following simple rules:
So, I've been thinking... that I need to start following small rules. Such as driving rules.
Think about it, you know how in church, people don't want to do the small chores, such as cleaning the bathrooms (classic example), but are willing to do larger role things such as teaching, or whatever. But, we have to be able to do the small chores thoroughly and whole heartedly. If we are incapable of taking the small chores seriously, how can God trust us with larger chores/roles?
Similarly with the idea of rules. I don't follow traffic laws. I like to speed and get to places as fast as I can, switching lanes frequently, etc. I need to learn to leave early to ensure that I have enough time to get places on time(a definite problem), and to follow the traffic laws. Know what I was thinking? If I can't even follow silly small WORLDY laws, how will God ever trust me to abide by His laws?
So, I did all of my reflections super short/cliff note version. Or else this would take forever.
More reflections later about the ones briefly mentioned up top.
College:
So, I'm at college right now. I live in an engineering dorm hall. At first, I was really bummed cause I thought everyone would be SUPER antisocial, which isn't completely false. But, I find it a secret blessing. I realized that since I'm in an engineering dorm hall, a lot of people don't party, but instead just like kick back and hang out. A lot of people don't drink nor do drugs. Even though there's only two halls/suites of girls, and 6 suites with guys, i may think that i prefer it. Girls are a bit dramatic. Also, I'm not sure, but I think I make friends more easily with guys. Or according to tanya: "you WOULD have more guy friends already". *shrug. also, since it's so quiet, it should be easier to study, for when I really need to crack down on homework.
God really does always provide.
One thing that's a downer is that I don't feel all that inspired here.
I've been feeling extremely shallow (not in the--only paying attention to looks-- type of way; but the -not really thinking thinking-type of way.) I havn't been doing in depth thinking, or I'm not sure what it is, but I feel slightly different. I'm not sure if i like it or not.
The other day though, I was walking back from class, and it started to rain, it was still hot out and everyone was covering their heads with binders/bags, etc. But I wanted to take my time from class, enjoy every aspect of the rain/feeling/environment. The funky smell, the tingle of the drops falling on your skin, the need to wipe it out your eyes every minute, the slippery feeling between my toes(wearing sandals), and everything else. It was one of the first times that I felt real.
...more about college/everything else later cause i'm getting lazy.
Adeiu,
Heather<3
(picture comment: I miss home's amazing scenery)
