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| Ohai David! Pretty good quality for an Iphone (i guess) |
Desire: a break from the midterms/papers, a better sense of myself, creativity, well-roundedness, inspiration, to see canyon court (cause they look SO FREAKIN CUTE.), additions to my wardrobe (and money to support it), more time to work on hobbies, better grammar, sophistication, more will to do things, to be able to capture images in my mind and print them out JUST HOW I WANT, to experience something truly breathtaking (as in literally skipping an inhale out of amazement), to reconnect with people/friends, REALLY CHEWY fresh asian noodles, malaysian food, indian food, really good food(basically)
Listening to: Of Monsters and Men: Little Talks, Walk Off the Earth: Somebody that I Used to Know (cover), Cillia Jane, Oh Land: Sun of a Gun(Jacob Plant Remix), Laura Marling: Goodbye England, and lots other newly good found songs. :D
Love: my thursday break (sitting on the arts building, listening to music, reading a book, relaxing, thinking, people watching, and secretly feeling incredibly cool for looking like a chass kid), little things that cheer you up, new recipes that spark interest, tackling lists (and making them), the (good kind of ) unexpected, when someone trusts you with a secret/knowing any kind of secret, Etiquette for a Lady,
Random Thoughts: it makes me feel awkward when people say things like "i popped my ____ cherry" and "i'm a ____ virgin" (insert some sort of action, place, food, or whatever else), I need a FB break but probably won't, I've been judgmental lately, my backpack being caught in that girl's hair was probably one of the most embarrassing moments in my life, i feel like that one street corner is cursed with bees (and it freaks me out to cross there), I am REALLY afraid and nervous for my midterm (yet can't get myself to study for it), i'm wondering what he was thinking when i told him,
BY THE WAY: This post is all over the place.
I feel that since people are so dependent on technology, we miss out on opportunities that could have been. Here are some examples. Walking to class: texting/listening to music, I could have missed out on hearing someone/seeing someone pass by that I knew to stop for a chat. Waiting for class to start: texting/playing a game/listening to music; instead I could have met someone new and struck up a conversation with someone. Sitting at home: go on the internet, watch tv; instead, I could have walked to a friend's apartment to chat, or done something actually productive.
Dear Henry/Hector/H...,
I know that I'll never see you again and never have the chance to apologize. But, I'm sorry. I truely am flattered at your compliment and your attempt to introduce yourself. I am in shock of my reaction and behavior towards you. I didn't register that you said you wanted to be friends after I had already begun walking away. I do not want to be perceived as one of those girls, ...ever. And by "one of those girls" I mean to say one of those girls that are think they're attractive and belittle others who are not; the ones who get boyfriends and never talk other people and shut down anyone who tries; the ones that are pretty much snobbish. But then again, I'm stereotyping, and judging... so maybe I DO have "one of those girls" characteristics. Once again, I'm sorry. Especially sorry for my awkwardness. I don't take compliments very gracefully.
Sincerely,
That one girl you saw walking.
SO. Something that my ethnic studies professor and TA brought up has been itching at me for a while.
They convey this anger and resentment towards children's education for the way history is taught. They all resent the Columbus story of discovery. She (TA) resents be "indoctrinated" with the pledge of allegiance. Learning about history as a child is now "indoctrination" as if we were brainwashed. In a sense, I can understand their beliefs and why they have come to these conclusions. However, if I realistically thought about the types of historical facts that they wanted us to know as children, I would be outraged. I understand that they believe that not knowing these negative facts about the US putting loads of people in genocidal situations is considered ignorant and naive. However, Would they REALLY want their 10 year old daughter knowing these things too? I feel as if the world is already filled with so many negative things, that is it really that bad to hold off on some negativity until people have aged? Imagine the sorts of consequences of telling children these facts when they're so young. What twisted souls would result!! I was sitting on the arts building during my class gap and there were these two girl scouts running up and down the building, surrounding me. At that moment, it was one of those times in which I wished SO BADLY to be able to capture a moment with my eyes and to have it kept forever. Because their innocence seemed so pure and unattainable to me. And I wouldn't want to ruin that sort of innocence in a child for any reason, not even to factually educate them about US's true history.
So, at the moment I've found myself taking classes in which I was unexpected at the material that's actually presented in lecture as compared to the material in which I thought I would be learning. First, History was a minor deviation from my expectation: is concentrated only on the political and military aspects. I for one, am not really interested in those two sections but rather find more interest in social and artistic aspects in history. So it was a bit difficult to suck it up and continue on with the course. Secondly, "Intro to Architecture and Urbanism" definitely caught my eye because I am fascinated by buildings, architecture, and design in general. So i thought the class would be a sort of introduction to the architecture field. Learning small aspects of architecture and the such. Instead, I've found myself stuck in a class that is focused on suburbia through the entire quarter. The SUBURBIA, which to be honest, to me, seems like one of the least interesting topics that I could study. But, there are those sparks of interest (FEW may I add) that occur here and there, during lecture. Third, in which I am least disappointed, is in Ethnic Studies. I fantasized about this interesting course of learning different aspects of different cultures and learning the mind sets and ins and outs of different ethnic groups. A celebration of diversity (in which the united states boasts about today). Instead, I find myself in a course which bashes the history of America and reveals the raw and graphic vulnerable ages of the minorities. I am appreciative that the university finds it important to ensure that students are not ignorant of America's past (and present) mistakes, however, I feel that this course's concentration doesn't lead its students in any better direction. I found that since taking this course, I have also conjured up feelings of angst/anger towards groups of people because they have wronged another group. I find this counterproductive to the goal that I feel ethnic studies should try to achieve. I feel that ethnic studies should try to create a society in which people are more accepting other ethnicities, which is created by the acknowledgement of differences of cultures. However, this knowledge of differences should be presented in a positive manner, in which students would be shown that its okay to be a deviation from the modern day "acceptable" white behavior, and better yet, differences should be celebrated. Instead, I feel as if ethnic studies not only creates negative mind sets, but also creates a slight amount of fear of being different, because we are shown countless cases of how people were brutally prejudiced, killed, and raped because of their difference.
...I wonder how I'll perceive my rant, later on in life if I choose to take the time to actually reread it.
That's it for now!
Sincerely,
That one girl from that one place from that one time.
