Indulgences: making lists(too many), pushing things to the very corners of my mind, spending all my money on food, slacking on my productive list of todos, not fixing my posture like I want to, lots of bloglovinn, sytycd watchin, finishing the past two antm seasons, finishing gilmore girl seasons :(, project runway, thinking a little too much, BUMMING, melon bars, buying a SUPER CUTE apron, keeping a rough list of how much i spend & on what, catching up with old friends, being a little more honest/open about myself.Désir: retail therapy, new wardrobe, learn french, cook/bake, exercise, an amazing apartment, Seafolly English Rose Bustier Bikini Top + matching bikini skirt, a super wicked one piece, peter pan collared anything, chambray shirt, jean jacket/vest, more sophisticated looking clothes, black wedges, heels+the tolerance to wear them, feather hair extension, scallop hemmed shorts, tall socks, combat boots, fingerless leather gloves, camel-toned anything, acne to go away!!, "New Girl" to start, sophisticated speech, pixie cut/something drastic, reading the classics, listen to more classical music, to meet someone (around my age) TRUELY classy.
Écouter: Blogotheque-- oh how i love you. various songs(a lot from sytycd routines), The Lonely by Christina Perri, Xenia from "the voice" (i'm obsessed w/ her cool tone)
Amour: making lists(i am ADDICTED.), how sometimes in the sun my hair naturally turns a little reddish/brownish, polyvore, this entry (& all of thought catalog), this series: move, eat, learn (watch them, AMAZING. To the man in all of these videos: i don't know you, but I already kind of love you.) (;, that i'm going to be getting crazy discounts at ON, BR and Gap, love being able to love and care for people, the feeling of crossing things off lists
Choses sur moi: I really don't like when people don't push in their chairs, I romanticize ideas in my head, I'm quite timid, I hate when I'm forced to act fake/happier than normal, i have a naturally "pissed off" looking face, my life is on slow-motion compared to other's, i don't like parties b/c they don't seem classy, I like class and sophistication, I break under pressure
I realized that I have too many desires/goals/things I want to get accomplished and achieve at. I have a long LONG list of skills I want to acquire that consist of learning french, learning japanese, playing guitar, flute, and piano, cook amazingly, sew clothes and such, exercising, great photography skills, sing amazing, be incredibly stylish, and be able to model a little. But i swear, my list continues to grow and grow each second, and I feel like with all of these things I want to achieve, I get overwhelmed and pursue none. Instead I've gained NO progress throughout these years of having the SAME goals and I NEED to change/start. I have yet to figure out a way to actually work on achieving these goals but what I'm thinking of is to concentrate on 2-3 goals per year until i've gained comfortability with them (and from there add on another 2-3 goals). BUT. most likely I'll probably be the same and keep having these skill goals that I never master. Frustrating.
Quelquefois, I think it's nice to be disconnected. Or, at least, it's a romantic idea. No phone, no internet, nothing. Just you being you, in the world without having to tell everyone your every single action, without having to know other's every thought, without having to be texting/ communicating 24/7. Isn't it a tad appealing to think about how in the past, there weren't social networks? So when you lost touch with someone, you REALLY do lose touch. And if you want to reconnect with someone, you/the other person would actually have to WORK to catch up? (instead of a click of a button, a couple of jabs at the keyboard, and DONE.) I feel that online social networks have killed, or at least weakened the value, effort, and intention of friendship. I like knowing that someone actually wants to put the effort to stay in touch with me despite the easy convenience of a quick fb wall message.
Another post soon (within 1day-2months). I think I already know what I want to write about.(:
Adieu et Bonne Nuit!
Heather
ps. i need to start practicing french somehow
pps. about photo: SUP UMAMI?! MY SISTER AND I CAN MAKE A BURGER W/ AN AWESOME CHEESE CRISP TOO!
