Yawn

Indulgences: icecream.(: polishing off that last bit of cookies and cream, plus some peanutbutter cup action, mini chocomint sandwiches, coffee haagendaz. (i was not joking when i said INDULGED.), a LOONGG drive to/from sandiego/carlsbad for a friend, running through the rain even though i had an umbrella, looking at fashionblogs, sitting in car trunks, recording ridiculous fb videos, washing my car in the rain, reading a buncha magazines, staying up ridiculously late MAKING CUPCAKE POPS. yay!,
Looking for: MY PARIS NECKLACE. WHERE. ARE. YOU. I MISSYOU., new clothes+a way to reinvent things i already got.
Listening to: friends on youtube, In Christ Alone, Moving Out, the quietness of just me and my thoughts while driving, DJ Earworm - United State of Pop 2009 (Blame It on the Pop), this (seen on friend's blog)
Love: actually getting some work done, project runway!, singing with friends, singing wildly and stupidly with friends in a car, looklet.com,
Desire: Rodarte crepe slip dress in either coral or black. IT'S FINALLY BACK IN STORES AFTER BEING SOLD OUT FOREVER. YESSS. THANKYOUUU.; possibly the rodarte leopard lace dress(inlove withthe bows in back), more wisdom, decisiveness, more individuality, less skepticism, SHOPPING, fashionable clothes, makeup/hair do-ing skills, doing unseen/unknown good deeds, new wardrobe for europe/college/the rest of senior year, to be a food connoisseur
Things want to do: Jason mraz concert?, vintage fashion expo?, world expo, LA street food fest, cupcake challenge, rose bowl flea market, the two remaining days of culture vulture, cook con amigos, some sorta vaca/roadtrip/funfilled 4 daypreidents weekend

NewYear'sResolution.
Yeah, I definitely failed. I think my newyear'sresolution will be to make realistic monthly/bimonthly goals to fulfill. probably starting February.
I'm thinking that February goal(s) will be 1.go to the gym at least once a week. 2.don't be later than 5 minutes late to hoeger's class/only be late once a week at most.

short vent.
check your sources. get your facts straight. don't judge based on what you hear. it drives me nuts when people believe 100% in the things they hear. ferreal.
Also: in disbelief that people ACTUALLY strategically scheme things out in their minds.

SECOND SEMESTER SENIOR YEAR. hello! Everyone's overly extremely excited and pumped! but, to be honest? i don't really feel any difference, nor think it's gna be THAT monumentally different. but WHOKNOWS.

So, at the moment. i'm reading an allure magazine. and it has a bunch of little one page articles which are quite interesting : "how to deal with difficult people" "how to rent better movies" "how to buy and serve cheese" the last one, especially caught my eye. the other day i was trying to decide what sort of cheese to put in a crepe, and i realized. i don't really know the taste/any sort of difference between cheeses, except for of course american, pepperjack, and blue. but those are so blazingly obvious that anyone could tell the difference. but i was really sad because i really want to be one of those food connisseurs that can taste what's in a dish and pick out everything. know what i'm saying? and then once you can taste every single ingredient, spice, herb, etc, and how it's all different or similar.. then you can taste it together in various combinations, and how each flavor contributes to the other and it all just becomes A SYMPHONY OF FLAVOR.
and it would also help in the learning to cook- process. (:

i am. so. CRAZY. EXCITED. OUT OF MY MIND. PEE IN MY PANTS. ECSTATIC for europe.
hi second semester, i'm going to be spending lots of time scrutinizing my sister's travel books, and researching the web, and just overall preparing for my trip. i want to go to europe with knowledge of things already and knowing DUDE THAT'S ____ AND IT __ AND ___. i just want to absorb as much of it's culture as i can while i'm over there. *sigh

I want to go shopping so incredibly badly. But, i'm uncertain what I want to buy. I realize that my closet has really random stuff. it also mainly consists of just a buncha boring t-shirts, and i'm not really in LOVE with anything. i want new clothes oh so badly. ESPECIALLY for europe, everyone in europe is so insanely fashionable, and i don't wanna go there with ugly clothes, nor do i want to enter college with ugly clothes. just sayin.
So, I'm pretty sure that I'm going against what i wrote in the last post about being less fashion obsessed. I'm PRETTY sure I let it consume me again. :[ hm. thinkathinkathink. i'm still unsure what to do about it.

God is truly insanely amazing and can do ANYTHING.
So, this might sound super stupid and insignificant, but MAN OH MAN. yesterday, I came home and randomly decided, i think i'm going to pray and read the bible. So, I did, then i took a LONG nap and woke up. went online, checked grades. WOAH. PAUSE. I CHECKED MY GRADES. AND WHAT I CAME TO FIND WAS THAT I HAD A 80 PERCENT IN CALC. what's so incredibly amazing about this is that i had a 66 percent before the final and such. A 66!! and based on the curve, i was pretty sure i was in the C/F range for the curve on the final. BUT. i got a b on the final! HOW IN THE WORLD. I'm positive that i guessed on over half the questions.. and there's just NO way that my grade could've raised that much. I really do think that it's because God had so much mercy on me. I know that i don't deserve this grade nor treatment from God, but for some reason, He knew how worried I was, and granted me this blessing. thank you.

wow this entry is not very interesting...and yet INCREDIBLY long.
so just now i was trying to think of what to write that would be atleast a TAD mind stimulating, a BIT interesting, or even a SMIDGE profound. and i came up with nothing. i've concluded that i truly think that i'm an extremely uninteresting person. LOl. seriously. I think i need to go experience more, read more, ____more, and just be more interesting. yup.(:

So, yesterday i went to lunch with my family and grandparents. and i noticed that my grandmother was wearing this leather vest. and i really really want it. funny, ey? isn't it weird that you take like grandma clothing and put it on a young person, and it instantly turns hipster. But.. on a old person it's just.. *shrug whatever? so that got me thinking, this is the prime age to be experimenting with clothes and fashion. cause when you're old, it doesn't really matter what you wear, it all just looks blah.

i like to read my old blog posts. lots of times, i read back and think "what . in. the. world!?". it's quite amusing seeing my ups and downs, my random blabbing, and how i don't make ANY sense at all, etc. Also, I realized that one single post is usually a compilation of MULTIPLE days/weeks,. I always seem to start a post, then liek save it and go back to it later then continue, stop, continue, then finally SOMETIME, post it.
REMINDER TO SELF IF I EVER READ THIS IN THE WAYY FUTURE. MAKE A WISH ON 11:11 11/11/11. (:

k, i'ma end this here cause it's just RIDICULOUSLY long, and I don't even think i'd read it. lol.
au revoir!
Heather

photocredit: yahoo images?, lifetime.com (CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT'S A POTATO SACK? ME NEITHER.)